Post #27

Wow....well, I don't know what to make of what happened today at school. I am still sitting here in a state of shock like I have been since English class. I guess I wouldn't really say it's a bad thing....but very awkward. I'll go ahead and get right to the point.
Well, we had a sub today in English and we were basically just doing busy work. Well, there's this guy named Jared that sits by me. I don't know him that well, I've just talked to him a few times. But anyway, he asked me if he could borrow a sheet of paper so I gave him one. Then all of a sudden, after he wrote something, he gave it back to me and asked me to answer him. He had written "Are you dating anyone right now?" I wondered why he was asking me this, but I wrote "no." So, to make a long story short, he basically asked me if I would date him. I can't describe how completely shocked I felt. No one has ever asked me anything like that! I think I just sat there for a minute trying to figure out what to say. What's really weird is that I really don't know this guy very well. So I did tell him how I'd have to get to know him better first, and I'd also have to talk to my parents. There IS one other problem though...lol. Having to admit this to my mom wasn't easy, considering she's been teasing me about being friends with Shaun ever since I first met him...but I do sort of, um, like him. I don't even know if he likes me that way, because he's friends with a lot of girls and could like any of them, so yeah. I'd be totally fine with him going out with someone else. I'd still be perfectly happy just being friends with him, but of course if he wanted to go out, I would be fine with that too. :) Now I'm wondering whether I should have told Jared about this, but I just wanted to be honest with him, because I figured once I got to "know him better" like I told him I would have to, it would be bad to have to tell him then. But anyway, I told my mom what happened and she agreed that I shouldn't date him now if I barely know him, so she told me to tell him that my parents said they weren't quite ready for me to date yet. So hopefully that'll settle it for now...I'm just worried about the future, because IF something did happen between me and Shaun, I don't know how I'd go about telling Jared. Even if I did just stay friends with Shaun though, I'm still not sure that Jared would be right for me anyway. This is just so strange for me though! I never in a million years thought that I was going to be dealing with this until I was like, 20. lol. But what do you know, here's some guy asking me out already!! And, I don't think that he would do this, but I really hope Jared doesn't say anything to Shaun, because unfortunately he figured out who my friend was. I did ask him not to say anything to Shaun about it, so I know that he obviously wouldn't be a good boyfriend if he did. I really don't think he would, but I just reaaaally hope he doesn't! He seems like he really wants to date me and I certainly hope that he wouldn't talk to Shaun to see if he likes me. For one thing, it'd be pretty awkward, obviously, especially if he liked someone else. Shaun isn't even allowed to date till he turns 16, which will be this summer. I was never planning on saying anything to him- I just figured, if he ever wanted to date me, great, but if he never said anything to me, then fine, we can just stay friends. But, if we ever did end up dating, that would be bad now because of the whole Jared ordeal. I also really don't want Jared to say anything for Shaun's sake- I'd really hate to get him involved in this, and I wouldn't want him to feel bad if he liked another girl. So please Jared, if you happen to be reading this- don't say a WORD to Shaun!!!! lol. Ahhhh, I never realized how complicated love really is until this moment. I just hope everything works out and my life doesn't turn into a dramatic soap opera. Ugh, just when I got my Spanish project done and did my driving test and thought that I was finally stress-free....